I can’t bear to throw it away.
I’ll keep it as a reminder of what I might have given someone.
Small and mighty as the gift might have been.
I stopped when I thought I’d done enough.
I probably hadn’t. Probably didn’t. Probably should have given just
a bit more of what required to be wrapped in this scrap of colorful waste.
I’ll try again. Maybe not wait until next year. Next Holiday. Next official
and fully sanctioned way to give. I’ll look for the eccentric places, the
odd, unexpected tokens of appreciation or outright love or the way the need
surprises me with my own largess. I’ll keep this scrap paper. I’ll post it with
my diplomas and my certificates of merit, my honors and my achievements
and remember I might have done more. I didn’t do enough. I gave less than
I’ll try again.